tell me Anon Babblecel how you been what's bothering you or what is making you happy? how you been?
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all my cars totaled/inoperable
wanted by the school administration for being in a viral video
mom almost died
all in all, been an exciting week
Been feeling quite lonely those past days and yesterday I dreamed with my ex.
I'm not bad but I'm not exactly ok too.
loser
old
flunkie
unemployed
drug and alcohol addict
life is great!
damn how did you mom almost died? and what was the video? hopefully something good
Im sorry anon, do you have friends? have you try hanging out with them? you live in Brazil just fuck your feelings away on a prostitute
I envy anon wish I was this comfortable
mom
crashed into a couple'a kids on motorbikes, she's got a weak heart so when she assumed the worst her heart went haywire - BP 174/44 lmao
viral video
drove like a motherfucker in my condo, crashed into a divider - one of those cars got totaled this way lol
had a job interview, it could've went better
i'll be pissed if it doesn't work out because i'll have to settle for a job that pays half and won't let me work from home everyday like the other one
seems like your family don't know how to drive anon, luckily you and yer family are ok
Not exactly into oke night stands, tried before and it's definitely not my thing.
And no, don't think I have friends desu.
congrats anon, hopefully you get the job, what was the job btw?
nah, the kids ran a red light
me, yeah i was Tokyo Drifting lol
AAAAAAAHHHHH I NEED A CAR
CANT LIVE WITHOUT ONE
that sucks anon, I also have an ex I can't let go, and no friends, silver lining as time goes by the least fuck I give about her
My father and brother had a brawl again
what's bothering you
That there’s millions of brown flooding mg cunt and being replaced. Honestly all I can think about
isn't Malaysia Le Walkable Clitty?
Yeah, same thing is happening here but still fucks me up how much we got along and suddenly things just fell apart.
I know eventually I will get over this but it's just sucks to be like this currently.
wtf what happened
seems like a pointless problem to worry about, giving you're only one person anon, its like worrying about Death
My elder brother still sore that dad and mom divorced 15 years ago or so
not even close
even a half-mile walk would take you about 30-45 minutes because the sidewalks/infrastructure is that shit
wtf Im sorry but why? seems like a retarded thing to be worried about
theres gotta be something deeper, anon
it's quite easy once you're completely dead inside
are cars cheap over there?
I don't know, alcohol maybe? Brother put a bruise on dad, but dad would've given him a beating of a lifetime if I didn't separated them. Now brother apologized but I don't know, this shit will probably happen again.
yeah but being like that is faggot shit, I rather be a retard and try and die trying than being a faggot and just lay there
ive been dissociating hard for whatever reason, i cant seem to ground myself in reality no matter what i do
174/44
nigga what?
I can't get a fucking job and the fucking amazon warehouse is an hour and a half away.
Might just buy a bike and start doing ubereats fml.
seems something else is going on there desu
Sounds like your brother shouldn't be living with your father. Honestly? If this keeps going eventually one will end up killing the other
have you talked to people? or do an activity requiring brain power? Honestly l Like disassociating, makes my faggot job goes quickly
are you a zainichi? doesn't Japan urgently needs young work force? sounds like they should be job offers idk
He doesn't lives with us, but lives nearby. That happened before, last time brother got drunk too. I think he blames parents divorce for his relationships problems? Like trauma and such. I had these thoughts too but I just blame myself being autistic and lame.
UberEATS pays well over there? Also, have you tried looking for wfh customer support jobs?
How bad does it gets?
cars are expensive since they put tariffs on foreign cars and jack up the price on local cars, its all a scam and i cant believe all of us fell for it
mom's got issues with her mitral valve, so blood goes into her heart but the blood struggles to come out - did surgery and all and she has to take blood thinning pills
she gets overly excited/anxious and its a fucking rollercoaster la
it's uhhhh IT related
Yeah, this makes sense and it's also very sad.
im forced to participate in society (college), and i do talk to people and say hi to professors. i do some programming i guess
i go into weird confusing thought loops like when i walk down the stairs i cant believe i just walked down the stairs. i can't make sense of the present, my brain keeps fucking up my sense of time and i have a dazed spaced out expression when i look a tmyself in the mirror.
here's an excerpt from what i posted yesterday:
nowadays i really cant tell if the people that walk by me on the street or talk to me are real, or if what im perceiving is real. it feels like one big hallucination or a prank. i tried bumping hard into some people but they were definitely "real". they reacted with anger and confusion, but i dont feel like im fully "in" the act.
ive tried calling my name out loud to myself repeatedly but it just made me really uncomfortable and aware of the meat suit im in. i find it hard to believe i actually control this flesh amalgamation, its real enough that i can manage everyday life but strange enough for me to be doubtful of reality.
No Japanese poster here is actually Japanese, except the schizoposter
No, but I heard is just enough to get by.
Are you the Korean anon working on your thesis about incels?
And from what you said, you should seek a psychiatrist asap, also check for carbon monoxide poisoning (and other things too) this kind of dissociation is quite strong and made me worried about you a bit, just get it checked and see what can be done about it.
same here
cant really walk to the supermarket, it's 5 minutes in car but no sidewalks and a highway in between
sadly i never learned to drive, anyway ive got no money for a car
I'm living in a house of a fucking hag (mother) with wage of 500$. I need to save at least 2000$ so I can move in the capital and live a normal life
That's unbearable in Siberia
I can't drive so my only options in the US are living in a crime ridden shithole, or live in a car city with no woolkable infrastructure. I suffer.
So basically zero comfort and only survival and paying bills?
I mean, it's better than nothing but this is fucked up.
Can't you join the armed forces or police over there to make better cash?
That's a month's wage
Are you that polish guy med student?
no i am not attentionwhore retard
polish
that nigger is udmurt
I've finally found out why I am a failure.
It's because I'm ugly. I just took a good look in the mirror and realized that. Ugly people who succeeded in life were just extremely lucky. When you're ugly, people treat you like shit. Women don't look at you and if they do, it's with disgust.
I'm 27 year old truecel. I've never even kissed a girl. I live with my mother. I just wish I would die already. What's the point?
Yeah sorry its the mention of the words mother and $500 that triggered my alarm
Just get a vakhta job for couple of months
Are you the Korean anon working on your thesis about incels?
no, that sounds retarded
And from what you said, you should seek a psychiatrist asap
ive always had a bad experience with them. one put me on prozac and seroquel and all that was on my mind when i was on them was suicide.
last year i had a delusion where i was a demon that possessed this body and the real owner already died. shrink put me on zyprexa but it didnt work (i took it for 2 months). it went away after a few months after i stopped taking it, so im just hoping it goes away this time too
phone starts ringing
heart about beat itself out of my chest
phone in general makes any noise
heart skips a beat
hear something fall on my floor through the letter hole
jump to the ceiling
I could make nice circus animal
You migut be schizo or bipolar. Have you ever had a manic episode?
Same
Also sometimes I feel that I'm about to get called
no
by success do you mean losing your virginity?
Yeah, you might have schizophrenia or bipolar disorder, maybe borderline disorder and you definitely had bad experiences with doctors so it makes sense to not go again.
do you wear the socks? :3
my logical thinking is fine, but the stuff related to processing reality and episodic memory is completely fucked. i dont think i have enough symptoms to be considered schizophrenic/bipolar, i dont hear stuff and i dont feel like people are talking about me. the delusions are manageable and not that strong, but still very uncomfortable
The only thing I can think of is you taking acid or shrooms, but this is not happening, so I have absolutely no idea, also why I said something about carbon monoxide poisoning too.
i dont feel any true connection or closeness with anyone, not even "close" family
i think i'll probably always be alone and isolated from others, it's more like im just a spectator in the world
i wasted my youth on literally nothing, was a neet for most of my 20s
for the most part im kinda apathetic about this, i acknowledge none of this is positive but i wouldn't say im depressed. but i think that is a problem in and of itself.
im doing alright now, decent job making the most money i've ever made. would like to buy my own place but the market is so grim
you should travel anon, you have nothing that is tying you up to your country. Who knows experiencing another perspective might help you